I've felt ambivalent about this blog for a long time. On the one hand, it works as a place to dump things in an accountable manner, in the sense that I'm aware of the possibility that they will be read but also that it's quite unlikely that they will be. I don't set it to private because that could be achieved by simply writing a journal, which I do anyway. Another good reason for its existence is that it stops people elsewhere from having my ramblings inflicted on them. For that reason, it persists.
On the other hand, whenever I post something on here it's ignored, so far as I can tell, and I don't even think it's any good. In fact, I think that posting on here usually leads to a somewhat depressed state of mind for quite some time. At least with a notebook you know it's not for others to read. I don't think it does my mood any good to stick stuff here though, so for now I'm going to stop I think. I don't know what the answer is to having people read or notice your stuff - I've never succeeded here or on YouTube. Maybe I should just start vlogging again, I don't know.
Another reason I think I'll stop is that my ex sees it as pointless narcissism, and to be honest that's fair comment. So for now, that's it.
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